…did I mention nobody seems to like me here? Still
Living alone March 1999
God is Good! It is now 2003. I’m still here
But it hasn’t been easy.
God is Great!
I Guess
The year 2000. My hungry as Hell year.
Hungry
1 potato
1/5 old onion
but still good for me onion
Should I eat the potato
with the onion
or
should I eat the egg
with the onion
or
should I live large
and eat the
potato and egg
with the onion
That is the question
Hungry
I smoke
I know now I smoke because
I am hungry
I don’t have money for food
I don’t have money for ciggs
How come I can ask for cigg but
I can’t ask for
money
or
food
from a stranger
strange huh?
or stupid eh?
Pride and Stupidity
don’t know each other
But I do know
Hungry
Don’t care how foolish
Hungry
For all the artist I adored
(can’t name none right now. I’m too hungry)
who moved very far from security to paint to write to play
paint, wrote and or played so they wouldn’t think about
how hungry they were
Yeah one could live on bread alone
if one had bread
Hungry
Still life don’t stay still long
’cause you hungry
Hungry Dream
Once upon a time
I was hungry and went to bed that way
I dreamed of chicken
fried chicken wings frying golden brown in a big frying pan
I took one wing out of the pan
it was hot and steaming
I remember burning my fingers tearing it apart
The smell of hot spiced fried chicken wings
prepared to be eaten
The warmth of the spicy hot chicken wing saying
bye to it’s still frying chicken wing pals
touched my lips
The door bell rang
My doorbell is loud
It can wake the dead
It work me
I never got chance to
taste my hot spicy fried
chicken wing…
Crazy Jesus of Probably
Not that I think I’m am like Jesus or nothing’ but my hungry thinking makes me think crazy.
When Jesus woke up from the dead and realized he wasn’t he probably fled. Wouldn’t you?
He couldn’t be a carpenter no more because his hands were damaged. So, he probably was ashamed to show his hands and ’cause his feet were damaged, he had a hard time walking. So
he probably had to crawl. And, since his talking got him in trouble in the first place he was
probably scared to say something. And because he was always holding his sore side, people
probably thought he was a sick cripple crazy theft hiding something and probably ran away from him or
tried to beat him up and take what he was hiding. So Jesus probably starved to death ’cause he didn’t have friends he could trust and ask for help. So probably that’s why he’s dead probably ’cause he didn’t beg.
Probably
This could probably be found in the book of probably.
Probably
I appreciate, greatly, your ability to express yourself so freely. You seem so open and honest. Also I chose to read this particular piece having known hunger myself – I totally get that missed chicken wing thing.
I think I will start working on that freedom you have for myself.
Hi Jacob, Thanks for visiting my website. Thank you for your comment. Toni Lane